For a long time, I could not understand why I should be more connected to my emotions. I really had too much of these already. My emotions were mistreating me. Emotions were only causing problems in my life. I missed trains and planes because of panic. Often in relationships I was awkward to the point of looking silly, because I was overcome by anxiety. My loving feelings were invariably taking me to someone who would either ignore me or treat me badly (I could then wallow in useless despair). I was easily feeling ridiculous or stupid, overwhelmed by shame. My emotions we so...